Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
- Hebrews 11:1
faith/hope/certainty is that God is real. Qn: can i live up to it?
3 days ago
Jan 13, 2010
Jan 11, 2010
reflectreflectreflect
din know reflections and hearing positive criticism r so impt to me.
i am such an extrovert, but i hav an introverted side. i need to overcome the guilt of having the little 'me' time. be less shy. proactive? strategic. less confused. more hopeful.
i am ugly in character, weak, in decisive and distracted at times. lack of confidence, too serious, not at all caring and pessimistic.
the ill things i know about myself.
what can i do to change?
i need to grow stronger, in maturity.
to learn how to take care of myself properly.
less needy, less attention seeking?
i remembered that satan's weapon is condemnation.
its condemnation...
i am such an extrovert, but i hav an introverted side. i need to overcome the guilt of having the little 'me' time. be less shy. proactive? strategic. less confused. more hopeful.
i am ugly in character, weak, in decisive and distracted at times. lack of confidence, too serious, not at all caring and pessimistic.
the ill things i know about myself.
what can i do to change?
i need to grow stronger, in maturity.
to learn how to take care of myself properly.
less needy, less attention seeking?
i remembered that satan's weapon is condemnation.
its condemnation...
Dec 31, 2009
happy2010
Ecclesiastes 7:14
When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.
When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.
Dec 29, 2009
mindless & inconclusive
school is reopening soon. and i am experiencing the withdrawal syndromes...
work is not too bad at all. the environment is quite good actually.
right, there shldnt be anythin to be sad about right?
:)
met up wif many grps of friends this festive season. many of which are attached/ gettin married... i wonder what'w wif me that i havnt met the one i can even stick wif for a while.
i guess the prob is probably me. why do attached friends get so absorbed and disappear?
i waver between hasty thots of gettin attached nonetheless to beseemingly nice individuals and eager thots of widening/moving on to know more new people, exploring fresh alternatives...
hdb, payin up for flats, accounting. focusin. settlin down? all these are nice thots. however, shld not be visited when i am not ready. yet, the idea and prerequitistes of being 'ready' is jus so strange and hard to handle.
i am jus tired of working and thinking about it.
i am jus too afraid of humans. humans that could make me die slowly and painfully.
tired of working hard for happiness?
do i assume that not having someone constitutes happiness?
having the wrong someone definitely bloom tragedy.
believe that finding someone and being together breeds joy!
realistically accepting that this piece of joy requires hard work.
what else is wrong with my thots/brain?!
(its gettin too heavy here)
on a happier note, i am comforted by the logic that there is only one in a million.
logic has it that we will collide with 99999 others.
guarded by a strange force, probably cowardice/rigidity/intolerance/hopelessness,
i refuse and hate wasting my time to meet the rest.
no one is patient enough to convince me.
1 of the 99999 might manage to deceive me.
1 of the million that should be right for me might convince the wrong person.
2 less than perfect unions might happen.
2 sets of people have to learn to work towards God's perfect plan.
the one person i meet can only be god-sent.
i can only continue wif my life now...
positioning myself to meet any other potentials at mysterious spots?
keen on being manipulative to get hitched?
planning for the future?
hanging for the moment.
missing the boat.
am i jus so difficult to be discovered?
or am i jus too dumb to discover.
work is not too bad at all. the environment is quite good actually.
right, there shldnt be anythin to be sad about right?
:)
met up wif many grps of friends this festive season. many of which are attached/ gettin married... i wonder what'w wif me that i havnt met the one i can even stick wif for a while.
i guess the prob is probably me. why do attached friends get so absorbed and disappear?
i waver between hasty thots of gettin attached nonetheless to beseemingly nice individuals and eager thots of widening/moving on to know more new people, exploring fresh alternatives...
hdb, payin up for flats, accounting. focusin. settlin down? all these are nice thots. however, shld not be visited when i am not ready. yet, the idea and prerequitistes of being 'ready' is jus so strange and hard to handle.
i am jus tired of working and thinking about it.
i am jus too afraid of humans. humans that could make me die slowly and painfully.
tired of working hard for happiness?
do i assume that not having someone constitutes happiness?
having the wrong someone definitely bloom tragedy.
believe that finding someone and being together breeds joy!
realistically accepting that this piece of joy requires hard work.
what else is wrong with my thots/brain?!
(its gettin too heavy here)
on a happier note, i am comforted by the logic that there is only one in a million.
logic has it that we will collide with 99999 others.
guarded by a strange force, probably cowardice/rigidity/intolerance/hopelessness,
i refuse and hate wasting my time to meet the rest.
no one is patient enough to convince me.
1 of the 99999 might manage to deceive me.
1 of the million that should be right for me might convince the wrong person.
2 less than perfect unions might happen.
2 sets of people have to learn to work towards God's perfect plan.
the one person i meet can only be god-sent.
i can only continue wif my life now...
positioning myself to meet any other potentials at mysterious spots?
keen on being manipulative to get hitched?
planning for the future?
hanging for the moment.
missing the boat.
am i jus so difficult to be discovered?
or am i jus too dumb to discover.
Dec 7, 2009
Proverbs 31:10-31
i thank J for His amazin word.
lookin at my friend gettin married yesterday sets me into thinkin deeper about marriage. not jus itself but married life. although it is almost impossible for anyone to have a full idea of it w/o goin and livin it. thus, i reckon there is no 'perfect' answers. there shld however, be some beseemingly erroneous ones, some right ones and some left to reveal only by itself.
Proverbs Chapter 31:10-31
10. A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.
11. Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value.
12. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life.
13. She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands.
14. She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar.
15. She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls.
16. She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17. She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks.
18. She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night.
19. In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20. She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy.
21. When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22. She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23. Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24. She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25. She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.
26. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28. Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her:
29. “Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.”
30. Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31. Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
i can see the new-bride (ey r allready married, jus dat the customary ceremony was not done yet) is and will be a very good wife.
i pray i will meet the perfect one dedicated by J to me.
i pray it will not be too hard and awkward.
i pray my marriage wil spur me on with greater motivation and will to live a purposeful life.
i thank J for Proverbs 31:10-31 and may J continue to perserve me during my singlehood.
congrats TJ! happiness and bliss for the couple!!!!
BEIJING HERE I COMEEEE!!!~
lookin at my friend gettin married yesterday sets me into thinkin deeper about marriage. not jus itself but married life. although it is almost impossible for anyone to have a full idea of it w/o goin and livin it. thus, i reckon there is no 'perfect' answers. there shld however, be some beseemingly erroneous ones, some right ones and some left to reveal only by itself.
Proverbs Chapter 31:10-31
10. A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.
11. Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value.
12. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life.
13. She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands.
14. She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar.
15. She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls.
16. She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17. She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks.
18. She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night.
19. In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20. She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy.
21. When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22. She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23. Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24. She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25. She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.
26. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28. Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her:
29. “Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.”
30. Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31. Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
i can see the new-bride (ey r allready married, jus dat the customary ceremony was not done yet) is and will be a very good wife.
i pray i will meet the perfect one dedicated by J to me.
i pray it will not be too hard and awkward.
i pray my marriage wil spur me on with greater motivation and will to live a purposeful life.
i thank J for Proverbs 31:10-31 and may J continue to perserve me during my singlehood.
congrats TJ! happiness and bliss for the couple!!!!
BEIJING HERE I COMEEEE!!!~
Dec 5, 2009
bizzee dae
morning and afternoon was wif my cousin at cosmoprof. she was so anxious abt the assessm. aiyah, no worries la. i think she did fine, and can definitely pass!
went to collect some winter clothes for the beijing trip. i havnt pack!came home for dinner, ranson $$ from the bridegroom... and now i am goin to the bride's place. heh....
heyhey CL(bridegroom)...
have u gotten ready of your angbao?
we r not greedy pple...
the angbao itself need not be too big, size do not matter here.
4digits will be good, in sgd/euros, real cash okay. (we can use the 4digits to buy 4D)
it has to be enough to cover our new make-up kit, nail art, high heels, eye lash...es, handbags, new dresses bought by the sisters, esp for ur BIG day.
hopefully, it can also fund our post-weddin celebration for the sisters at a nice restuarant (equinox will be good)...
stay cool for today!
and see u all tmr...
wonder how tomolor will be like...
hee, i am definitely feelin v happy for my friend.
too happy for her liao, it seems like its mine :P
lolx.
God bless the lovely couple!
Dec 3, 2009
make-up frenzy
today was me watchin my friend windsurfing in the morning...
(i cant reiterate more, i love ecp)
followed by scsm sports fair and penguin sales @ expo.
bot some nice sports top and books!
then it was a fruitful TSG sharing at BTC
- there r no lazy students, jus unmotivated ones
- teachers need to be consistent and constantly pray for our students
- Mark 11
- Isaiah 40
- reponsible decision making that is God responsive
- that our lives are not owned by us but by God (includes our mundane duties/ promotions)
and makeup frenzy @ dawn-jie's place.the make up session was really quite fun!
its such an eventful day!
i was aso thinking abt e-learning (repiration n ecology...
plus my future sec one kids, dunno how ey will look like!
i need to work on e-learning tmr!
jiayou!!
(i cant reiterate more, i love ecp)
followed by scsm sports fair and penguin sales @ expo.
bot some nice sports top and books!
then it was a fruitful TSG sharing at BTC
- there r no lazy students, jus unmotivated ones
- teachers need to be consistent and constantly pray for our students
- Mark 11
- Isaiah 40
- reponsible decision making that is God responsive
- that our lives are not owned by us but by God (includes our mundane duties/ promotions)
and makeup frenzy @ dawn-jie's place.the make up session was really quite fun!
its such an eventful day!
i was aso thinking abt e-learning (repiration n ecology...
plus my future sec one kids, dunno how ey will look like!
i need to work on e-learning tmr!
jiayou!!
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