initiative

as suggested by my goodpal, i hav decided to blog again to relief come kinda boredom/ frustration in my devillived life.

no that i liveddevil... but jus kinda bored and gibberish at the moment. millions-bytes of thought trafficking through my jammed and busy nerve-weaved brain. wired erratically.

ok. siao-ness done wif.
time to explain what/why.

GLADNESS:

thanks dom for large-sized sunshine showerhead. it saved and made my day.

though NIE is indeed kinda FAR, i'm glad our ed-psych lecturer was farnie. with her wealth of experience and boundless capacity to teach, she passionately cracked jokes in a motherly manner in class. i like her. i hope i will be inspired by her stories.
having familiar friends like lianya, kerui, fidelia, yvonne made life easier.

i hav 1 short day (tdy) and 1 free day(tmr) this week. HIPPY!
visited the singapore garden fest with ade and took lots of peektures.
met james n his wife too.

as for tmr, i am goin to ecp!!
gonna learn a bit of cycling and enjoy skating.

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BITTERNESS:

i cant deny i HATE certain entities of beings.

i cant stand the fact that femail friends disappears when they have found their very special mail speciMAN. it upsets me. so much.

i cant understand wat HOT means, it felt like an insult to hav lots of friends (who are not ard cos they hav more impt things to attend to). i was so desperate that i wiki-ed it. my wiki-friend told me that HOT-2, HOT-7, and HOT-17 are series of psychedelic phenethylamines. drugs? arghhhhhs

i dun get your understanding of me, your view of where i am comin from and that u really hope to be with me. i am still an ad-hoc project to u. at least u hav made me feel that way ever since.


i am afraid. afraid that i will be unhappy beyond what i can handle.
scared that i would be saddened and blinded from available hope, possibilities and joy.

i dun understand why.
wat is wrong wif me that i could change/accept/do.
explain logic. gimme wisdom plssssssssssssssssssssssss.
gimme gimme gimme gimme more wisdom.