school postin'

jus got my school posting!

wow, i was really excited and apprehensive.
the 'what ifs' dazed me out.
listing the possible pros and cons and thinking from both sides.
(my contract teaching was not very pleasant)

but i will constantly remind myself that
- i like my job cos it was on my mind since secondary school
- i am 'zai', competent and capable
- i love my students too much (in a bigger picture) to hate them (right now)

like wat my classmate said, 'we should not judge. cos the students need us.'
its true, who am i to judge? if i am not needed in the school, why will i be posted there? anyways, i am glad that i have a gesl friend with me in my future workplace. she is a nice person.

seriously, i need to stop my worrying-too-much nonsense!
i am all set to start my actual teaching soon!

happy chinese new year!

:)

last assignm

its good to finish my last assignm for the semester, which was on designing of an instructional package for chemistry! weee...!!

although i have many things planned this hols, a part of me is still pretty afraid to be left alone. not that i am demeaning the company of good friends, but i somehow feel that i am too social a person. my moods and the things i do are highly affected by the people around me. i am constantly lookin out for activities to do, plus i feel and do things for others most of the time. not very objective, always thinking abt the past and worryin abt the future. that's not very right.

maybe i am exaggeratin here. its jus an observation i made of myself. but, at my age, it is only natural that my social circle is to expand. but hopefully i will grow to be more accepting, open-minded and less self-critical, that i can also grow to be more in touch with myself and to be more comfortable on my own. *zen-ness*

i know i can.
:)