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02.11.11

2011-11-02T07:33:00.000-07:00

its one day after the 'magical' 01.11.11.

i guess everyone will be anticipating 11.11.11 next.

well, its worth looking forward to, cause 11th is one day before pay-day!

hahahha.... hohoo...

i need more self-initiative and motivation to

exercise (yoga jogging)
go for my facials
prepare for next year (etc notes, worksheets, tests, events etc)
sort out old clothes
go out more
READ
EARN MONEY
feel LESS guilty about not doing any of the above

item #1

It's terrible how sloth get its power over me. i have lost interest in doin yoga, something i liked to do in the past. sign to be doomed for depression.

item #2

the pores on my face are getting macroscopic and clogged. a bit scarred too. like gym membership, my facial appointments should keep up too.

item #3

there's a lot of work I can prepare. to avoid the rush next year. preparation to a hiccup-free and smooth-going year. *cheers*

item #4

I have lots of clothes. i should sort them out and sell them on blogs or flea market. pass them to others to make more space for new clothes.

item #5

going outdoors creates more opportunities to wear the clothes i bought :)

looking at new things or talking to people can make me happy too.

item #6

i am curious about many things. i am drained and no longer motivated to anything. so it will be of good news if i am able to read a book properly n learn something.

item #7

yea, recently i feel really deprived of vitamin M. although i do have a reasonably average pay.

item #8

an idle mind kills.

and i am suffering with a crazy-lazy mind. i need to go back and question myself. whats is my purpose of doing everything and anything. feeling guilty of wanting to doing nothing just makes me miserable.

what are the things that i can do to make myself happy?

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. - Philippians 4:8

kids are truly spoilt

2011-08-18T04:15:00.001-07:00

wow! it has been ages...

i missed my days some 5 years ago, where i can blog and bitch about everything i am not happy with!

why must i try to understand these 'pea-brained' creatures?

why should i think of excuses for them?

their nonsense, hurtful words and willful ways... who do they think they are?!

i wanna shout profanities.

bitch, bitch, BITCH!

god n vision. spirituality and the reality matrix

2010-11-01T06:40:00.000-07:00

a mouthful for a title.

jus for records... stumbled upon these strings of inspiring words.

The Vision Prayer - Diania Cooper

"I have a vision where all people are at peace, fed and
housed, every child is loved and educated to develop their
talents, where the heart is more important than the head
and wisdom is revered over riches.

In this world justice, equality and fairness rule.
Nature is honoured, so the waters flow pure and clear
and the air is fresh and clean. Plants and trees are nurtured
and all animals are respected and treated with kindness.
Happiness and laughter prevail!

And humans walk hand in hand with angels.
Thank you for the love, understanding, wisdom, courage
and humility to do my part to spread the light.
May all the world ascend.
So be it!"

God

I am Strong as the Mountains,and Gentle as Flowers.
I am the River of Eternity flowing through your life.
I am Death Incarnate and The Giver of Life.
The Deepest Indweller. The Farthest Outdweller.
I Am All Things and Nothing.
The Eternal Mystery is the Ocean I swim in.
The Eternal Truth is the Land I walk upon.
I am the Earth, the Sun, the Moon and the Stars.
Liquid Energy. Spirit. Creativity. Life.
Smaller than the Smallest, Larger than the Largest.
Weaker than the Weakest, Stronger than the Strongest.
I am the Perfect Tool, the Perfect Creation.
I Am the Absence of All Things, and the Presence of Nothing.
I was Ancient when Creation was Born, I shall be Existent when Creation Dies.
I Am Eternal Radiance and Dark Oblivion.
I am The One, The Few and The Many. The Triplicity.
Yang-Yin. Law-Chaos. Duality.
The One Themself. I Am Om. I Am Gray Infinity. I Am Clear. I Am Void.
The Fathomless Well of Existence.
The Absolute.
The One Itself.

Spirituality is tapping into higher vibrations of super-sentient infinity. This purifies us and raises us higher towards the source. We can never reach infinity, but harmony and spirituality bring us to a relative state of Oneness, No one religion has a corner on the truth. Religion is the Cradle of Spirituality. Over time it needs to be refreshed. Some refreshers are not truth speakers, some are. Religion is the creation of man, with the Truth of God/Goddess. Spirituality is harmonizing with the Creators Themselves.

Pick something to challenge...

- Religion. Such hypocrysy...
- Culture/Taboos. They limit the resources we have.
- Authority. You're in charge today, not tomorrow.
- Society. Why can't I be myself?
- Prejudice. Colors/Class shouldn't matter.
- Ignorance. Why can't we explore and expand?

what do you love about today?

2010-08-21T04:02:00.000-07:00

went for a talk with my cousin today. it was nice just spending time with her.
met cousin cindy and I LOVE HER. for her positivity. its great.

i want to start recording about the things i love about each day.
nonetheless silly. but i know its worth it.

what do you love about today?

the haitus (o_0) the overhaul

2010-08-02T20:41:00.000-07:00

its been about six months since I blogged.

many things occurred, should it be significant, are left unrecorded.

a new relationship.
my first dive.
trip to japan.
my 26th birthday.
exploration into a new philosopy in 'life'.

the six months is indeed exciting in retrospective!

my dear friend shared this video with me and i like it very much! enjoy :)

i do not want to lose myself!

2010-02-25T19:52:00.000-08:00

my anger is only for me to bear, the students do not even understand it. PATIENCE, i need patience and non-chalance! Non-chalance about the noisy, the defiance, the mindless comments, the childish acts. i should jus let them mis-behave.

The purpose of this note is just for me and the people who are genuinely concerned about me, to read about my encounters with difficult and rowdy classes/ students.

I do not have the best temper in the world and I can get really irritated with the students, so much so that I feel exasperated. I hope I will become better by the day. To be able to execute my duties well in school in a graceful manner.

I assume everyone dislike being angry. I peersonally dislike being angry, especially with mindless students. Just 'letting them be' do not help at times.

2010-01-13T07:51:00.000-08:00

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
- Hebrews 11:1

faith/hope/certainty is that God is real. Qn: can i live up to it?

reflectreflectreflect

2010-01-11T05:54:00.000-08:00

din know reflections and hearing positive criticism r so impt to me.
i am such an extrovert, but i hav an introverted side. i need to overcome the guilt of having the little 'me' time. be less shy. proactive? strategic. less confused. more hopeful.

i am ugly in character, weak, in decisive and distracted at times. lack of confidence, too serious, not at all caring and pessimistic.
the ill things i know about myself.
what can i do to change?

i need to grow stronger, in maturity.
to learn how to take care of myself properly.
less needy, less attention seeking?

i remembered that satan's weapon is condemnation.
its condemnation...

happy2010

2009-12-31T20:00:00.000-08:00

Ecclesiastes 7:14

When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.

mindless & inconclusive

2009-12-29T07:52:00.000-08:00

school is reopening soon. and i am experiencing the withdrawal syndromes...
work is not too bad at all. the environment is quite good actually.

right, there shldnt be anythin to be sad about right?
:)

met up wif many grps of friends this festive season. many of which are attached/ gettin married... i wonder what'w wif me that i havnt met the one i can even stick wif for a while.
i guess the prob is probably me. why do attached friends get so absorbed and disappear?

i waver between hasty thots of gettin attached nonetheless to beseemingly nice individuals and eager thots of widening/moving on to know more new people, exploring fresh alternatives...

hdb, payin up for flats, accounting. focusin. settlin down? all these are nice thots. however, shld not be visited when i am not ready. yet, the idea and prerequitistes of being 'ready' is jus so strange and hard to handle.

i am jus tired of working and thinking about it.
i am jus too afraid of humans. humans that could make me die slowly and painfully.

tired of working hard for happiness?
do i assume that not having someone constitutes happiness?
having the wrong someone definitely bloom tragedy.
believe that finding someone and being together breeds joy!
realistically accepting that this piece of joy requires hard work.
what else is wrong with my thots/brain?!
(its gettin too heavy here)

on a happier note, i am comforted by the logic that there is only one in a million.
logic has it that we will collide with 99999 others.
guarded by a strange force, probably cowardice/rigidity/intolerance/hopelessness,
i refuse and hate wasting my time to meet the rest.

no one is patient enough to convince me.
1 of the 99999 might manage to deceive me.
1 of the million that should be right for me might convince the wrong person.
2 less than perfect unions might happen.
2 sets of people have to learn to work towards God's perfect plan.

the one person i meet can only be god-sent.
i can only continue wif my life now...
positioning myself to meet any other potentials at mysterious spots?
keen on being manipulative to get hitched?
planning for the future?
hanging for the moment.
missing the boat.

am i jus so difficult to be discovered?
or am i jus too dumb to discover.

Proverbs 31:10-31

2009-12-07T01:01:00.000-08:00

i thank J for His amazin word.
lookin at my friend gettin married yesterday sets me into thinkin deeper about marriage. not jus itself but married life. although it is almost impossible for anyone to have a full idea of it w/o goin and livin it. thus, i reckon there is no 'perfect' answers. there shld however, be some beseemingly erroneous ones, some right ones and some left to reveal only by itself.

Proverbs Chapter 31:10-31
10. A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.
11. Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value.
12. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life.
13. She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands.
14. She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar.
15. She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls.
16. She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17. She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks.
18. She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night.
19. In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20. She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy.
21. When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22. She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23. Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24. She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25. She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.
26. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28. Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her:
29. “Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.”
30. Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31. Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

i can see the new-bride (ey r allready married, jus dat the customary ceremony was not done yet) is and will be a very good wife.

i pray i will meet the perfect one dedicated by J to me.
i pray it will not be too hard and awkward.
i pray my marriage wil spur me on with greater motivation and will to live a purposeful life.

i thank J for Proverbs 31:10-31 and may J continue to perserve me during my singlehood.

congrats TJ! happiness and bliss for the couple!!!!

BEIJING HERE I COMEEEE!!!~

bizzee dae

2009-12-05T02:46:00.001-08:00

morning and afternoon was wif my cousin at cosmoprof. she was so anxious abt the assessm. aiyah, no worries la. i think she did fine, and can definitely pass!

went to collect some winter clothes for the beijing trip. i havnt pack!came home for dinner, ranson $$ from the bridegroom... and now i am goin to the bride's place. heh....

heyhey CL(bridegroom)...

have u gotten ready of your angbao?
we r not greedy pple...
the angbao itself need not be too big, size do not matter here.
4digits will be good, in sgd/euros, real cash okay. (we can use the 4digits to buy 4D)

it has to be enough to cover our new make-up kit, nail art, high heels, eye lash...es, handbags, new dresses bought by the sisters, esp for ur BIG day.
hopefully, it can also fund our post-weddin celebration for the sisters at a nice restuarant (equinox will be good)...

stay cool for today!
and see u all tmr...

wonder how tomolor will be like...
hee, i am definitely feelin v happy for my friend.
too happy for her liao, it seems like its mine :P
lolx.
God bless the lovely couple!

make-up frenzy

2009-12-03T09:00:00.000-08:00

today was me watchin my friend windsurfing in the morning...
(i cant reiterate more, i love ecp)
followed by scsm sports fair and penguin sales @ expo.
bot some nice sports top and books!

then it was a fruitful TSG sharing at BTC
- there r no lazy students, jus unmotivated ones
- teachers need to be consistent and constantly pray for our students
- Mark 11
- Isaiah 40
- reponsible decision making that is God responsive
- that our lives are not owned by us but by God (includes our mundane duties/ promotions)

and makeup frenzy @ dawn-jie's place.the make up session was really quite fun!

its such an eventful day!

i was aso thinking abt e-learning (repiration n ecology...
plus my future sec one kids, dunno how ey will look like!

i need to work on e-learning tmr!
jiayou!!

de[liberated] attempt to rite.

2009-12-02T06:35:00.000-08:00

i wish to be brief and shallow.
if only my actions speaks more of my thought.

i am experiencing anger now, angst with frustrations.
with things not resolved.
like the pain in the arse, or a choke at the larynx.

do i really believe i have the power to change?
i'm gettin impatient, edgy, mean and unsatisfied.

why aint i reconciliated/contented?
why am i angry with myself?
why? why is this so?
where is the JOY?

casted in the wind or casted in stone?
make a choice.
RELAX!!!

'cos we r livin in a imperfect world and i am an imperfect girl...'

(ok, i feel better after bloggin, this blog is my trashbag man)

2009-08-06T04:45:00.000-07:00

there r times
... when kids really gets into you, when you are tired n the kids r indifferent.
... when u r edgy n shrugged at ur colleagues.
... when u felt hurt cos u r misunderstood.

those r the times we felt weak.

in between these, i wondered how my imperfections had made me suffer its repercussions.

everyone needs a listening ear, someone that stands on our side.
whose critics we hold dear, whose support can propel changes.
'the reason' and 'the one', the assurance.

i am lookin forward to tomorrow evenin's prayer worship.
hope i will feel better after that. energized and refreshed.
i wanna depend on God, not on my ego.
and here i am, asking 'how'.

2009-07-20T01:03:00.000-07:00

need to go slooow (take my time) wif the NT students.

really can tire me out jus shoutin n screamin at them to make them learn.
i want to keep my cool.

ey r indeed wired differently. i will take my time.

beneath it all. i dun think they are 's*u*id' or 's*ow'... really.

they are kinda cute and hyperactive. hiak!

2009-06-25T10:46:00.000-07:00

red

2009-06-21T22:01:00.000-07:00

who took somethin purfect and painted it red?

my life can be beautiful... its true :)

2009-06-21T09:19:00.000-07:00

terrapins, frogs and bats....
koi, cookies and such

~~~~~~~ \(o.O)/ ~~~~~~~

we'll all need time. both the good & the bad.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

whatever keep others sane and happy.
whatever limits I have to adopt. lessons on tolerance and acceptance.

♥♥♥♥

jus back from msia and thailand. strengthened some friendships and made 3 new ones!
wow-the-ness! awesome!
keekee

2009-06-10T09:02:00.000-07:00

rite, knowin is better than wonderin

i wan love to compel me.

not fear.

NO.where? NOW.here. Love and life is sad. Take it or leave it.

2009-05-26T08:21:00.000-07:00

Grey's Anatomy (2005)
If Tomorrow Never Comes (S01E06)

Dr. Meredith Grey: [voiceover] A couple hundred years ago Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that 'til tomorrow, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity; you'd think we'd pay more attention to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of rejection. Sometimes the fear if just of making a decision. Because... What if you're wrong? What if you make a mistake you can't undo? Whatever it is we're afraid of, one thing holds true: That by the time the pain of not doing the thing gets worse than the fear of doing it, it can feel like we're carrying around a giant tumor. And you thought I was speaking metaphorically... 'The early bird catches the worm.' 'A stitch in time saves nine.' 'He who hesitates is lost.' We can't pretend we haven't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time; heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still, sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrows rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering. That waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake, beats the hell out of not trying.

thus far

2009-04-22T04:51:00.000-07:00

wah. its so sian to be deleted from someone's facebook account.
others do not even care.

WHY SHOULD I?

its one big round the world, to finally realise. the intangible remains vague. the air remains unrooted. what movin mountains.

WHAT THE HELL IS THE FUSS? WAS THE FUSS. SO WHAT'S THE FUSS.

i am not needed. i should have known.

I SHOULD HAVE DISAPPEARED. perhaps loooong looooong time ago. i should not have waited and held on.

heaven turnin into hell

2009-04-04T07:32:00.000-07:00

this is how we communicate now.
i hope we still have friends.

non-coherent sheet!!

2009-03-28T22:40:00.000-07:00

i still like the word fun-er.
e.g. jane is funner than jack.
wonder why should we always phrase it as 'more fun'?
(grammer rulez. zZZzz.)
ultimately, alphabets are tools for us to rearrange in whatever way we want
(to each our own meaning n interpretation at the very least.)
how much less fun is 'more fun' than 'fun-ner'?
Fun-ner sounds more wacky to me.

plum juice, plumper or a plumber is lumpy??!!
ah-huh! maybe a polly pocket doll which is teeny-weeny.
but how abt it being whiny?
do you still wan to keep it in your pocket?
and let it conveniently drill a hole in there too?
ha, what else do ppl care 'cept the racket?
so much for a polly in your pocket, shoo!

laugh out love or cough out blood!!
its a chokin good release.
i felt like a mad-woman on a loose. yellin at 'kids' yesterday.
how is it not any fun-ner?

argh! i like TCG, but hates to be one!

celestial

2009-03-19T22:18:00.000-07:00

da.the.de lowest form of being

cooler, more cool.

2009-03-12T07:40:00.000-07:00

whyowhy, am i always rushin my LPs? is it cos of my bad time management? maybe its jus common. RUSH

and mrbrown show has this v funny episode on 'the curious case of mister merlion'.
its really funny!
quotes:
a) child of a 'water cooler and a louhan fish'
b) merlion said to his lover 'i gonna go to stand next to the sea'...she said 'pls write me postcards everyday ok'. *awwww....
c) the curious case of a 'half fish, half lion, all man'
d) 'elect'-ion this year mah!

question! what does this incident mean to u?
- even icon also got no iron rice bowl
- the lightning rod is better built on merlion's ear than beside it.
- shiok ah! shock tio!
- premonition! apocalypse! we're cursed!
(it doesnt help when there are so many fridays the 13thssss this year rite?)
- mrbrown is very curious

i have tried teachin the cause of lightning, use of lightning rods and the case of merlion being struck. the evaluation was that its a good lesson and was very interesting, but not in the syllabus leh.do not spend too much time on it.

duh! term hols plans.

its v confusin n troublesome to coordinate a trip wif so many ppl. *grasp!
best of all deals, different opinions/ preferences. fffffwaaaah!

nonetheless, we still managed to get a chalet at batam.
hope there will be more sun though! and i am goin for a massage, slacking by the beach.
reading leisurely.
chit-chattin wif friends.
get soaked!
EATing yummy indo food.
*beams in dreams*

and my pals suggested a roadtrip to know.where.
exploring the wow.the.ness of truly asia.
takin ktm and travellin south with NO FIXED AGENDA (how cool-woo is that?!)
adventurous.unpredicted. it gets me all excited.
and! gimme to me :)

when i meet the right one, we will love to spend time with each other and never grow tired. we can travel, bum, work together 24/7. there will be no arguments, nothin to hide. totally as a team. in sync. while i wait, i can enjoy the time in the company of many. i will keep the faith.

de elementz

2009-02-28T23:26:00.000-08:00

hey. poor thing. i was jus havin a picnic beside it some 2 weeks ago.
hey, din know it'll be the last time i will see u. sweet memories.
hey, goodbye merlion.
we'll get u fixed real soon i bet.

it'll be a good thing to include for my lesson on electricity though.
electrocuted n thunderstruck
reminds me of the old man in benjamin buttons.... being struck by the lightning 7 times, and still happy to be alive.

n cheapskate thrill i've got. 200buckaroos wortha GST rebates.
jus to cover the damage at borders dat day.
yummy buckaroos.

lookin forward to a trip to the southern islands.
waterguns war rulez!

angst vs my soft spot.

2009-02-28T21:20:00.000-08:00

when a guy is into you, he lets you know it. He calls, he shows up, he wants to meet your friends, he can't keep his eyes or hands off of you.
if he want you, he will find you.
busyness is jus some really mean excuse for mass destruction.

this few weeks was crazy. i am mind-fu*ked. who says girls r the only ones givin mixed signals? guys can play it even better, esp when females are said to be more emotional and irrational.

wah lao eh! WTF is this!!!
why am i left alone to face all this shit?

complains aside.

at times like this, conditioned through numerous awful drills, i seek God.
he gives me comfort.

i reckoned, a woman's heart is the safest, when it is in God's hands.
every night i prayed and reassured myself that God truly is love.
and GOD LOVES ME.

i know, neither lesbianism nor a swore to celibacy can remove the angst in me now.

on a slightly lighter note, i went to ecp to skate yesterday.
i hav changed and greased the entire set of my bearings. it have been 3 years. my pair of skates is the greasiest, loveliest and dirtiest thing i've kissed yesterday. thanks for bringing me so much joy. i love u. rollerbladetwister♥

why am i doin what i am doin?

2009-02-19T20:11:00.000-08:00

doin the right thing, for the wrong reasons?
Matthew 16:23
minding the things of God or minding the things of men?

misguided motivations (drive)

praise

popularity of men, ego-stroked, approval of men. applauds.

pride

desire to seek personal recognition and victory, remind pple what we have accomplished and done, self-importance.
we cannot really contribution (addin to it) to God's plan but we participate (slice of action) in the works of the Lord. we reap the benefits in the process.
no one is indispensible, everyone is adaptable. life goes on.
take God more seriously and take ourselves less seriously.
do not need to take credits for all that we do.

James 4:6 "God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble."

our past

past and present problems - coloured n tainted
actions driven by bad experiences - honesty to facing up and deal with them
inner insercurities and hurt- bitter envy, self-fish ambitions, negative emotions - corrupts the best in our hearts n actions
our past hurts - pushed to the basement and need not deal with them - becomes the subconscious
we will fall into this basement whenever we face problems and we will be subconciously tormented by these thoughts (negative or positive).
facin to face with the 'skeletons' of our past - hurts n all negativities - at the basement of our life, lies all our past experiences - affects our actions/ rationality
start from our devotion and revisitin/search/check our motivations - uprooting the skeletons/ past traumas - able to walk free from negativity
we then can recall memories without pain - ask God to heal our inner being - revelations

Mathew 6:33-34
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

pen sieved tots

2009-02-19T02:55:00.000-08:00

we have some personal, special and urgent needs.

moved,
wired-connected-attached-drawn-gravitate.
tormented.

never let a problem to be solved become more important than the person to be loved.

路遥知马力, 日久见人心

***

from 'Nurturing the Inner Life' by Pastor Ho

the many things and the one thing
waiting by the Lord will we find those things that are necessary for us to work from the rested inner-being

For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
- Ephesian 2:10

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.
- Psalms 91:1-2

resting comes from trusting God.

what is the condition of my inner life: garden or a desert?

>>>>> 5 Arenas of our inner life

core of being: 1.devotion - prayer, what/who do we love, intimacy with God,

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.
- Proverbs 4:23

DQ - Doing Quotient

accomplishment -> status -> man centred -> positional authority (where u are)

BQ - Being Quotient

authenticity -> substance (who I really am, purpose) -> God centred -> spiritual authority (require to nurture all 5 aspects)

5Cs
communion (in prayer), commitment (to the word), character, calling, contrition

pathway to God,
martha vs mary
find the best sacred pathway to get close to God, as we are wired differently.
traditionalist, naturalist, service/doings, contemplative, music

fundamentaly, everyone needs time ALONE to be in His presence for prayers and readings.

Invitation to the Thirsty

¹ "Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.

² Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.

³ Give ear and come to me;
hear me, that your soul may live.

- Isaiah 55:1-3

2.motivation - callings, intentions, primary focus, why do we do what we do?,

3. preoccupation - what are schedules, routines, time mgmt,

4. contemplation - what do you think about?, personal meditation, what do we read? how knowledge is integrated?,

5. restorations - rest, recuperation. emotional, spiritual, physical reserves. how our soul is taken care of?

heehee

2009-02-16T06:44:00.000-08:00

i have signed up/registered/ bought for
- alpha course
- sundown run (10k)
- tickets for 'Cats', the musical

meeting my supervisior tmr and my practicum starts nxt week!
*jitters*

something else to share, from our biology trip presentation... heehee...

D'Kranji Farm Resort

2009-02-13T02:45:00.000-08:00

n this is farnie!

ohh wee, ghostface killah.

2009-02-11T07:53:00.000-08:00

......

2009-02-01T05:51:00.000-08:00

sweet moments are to last forever...
those hugs and kisses.
they are not fleeting.
but will remain, only fondly.

how to guard my heart but not harden it???

at times

2009-01-29T05:03:00.000-08:00

at times i feel so nervous, insecure, scared and panicky.
i hope someone will be here to help me calm myself down.
i controlled, i curb, i suppressed.
i breathe, i smiled, i jumped around.

super cranky now.
goin out for a jog!!!!

happy 牛 year to all!

2009-01-25T20:01:00.000-08:00

新年快乐。万事顺心。身体健康。

和家平安，幸福温馨甜蜜！！！

school postin'

2009-01-23T07:41:00.000-08:00

jus got my school posting!

wow, i was really excited and apprehensive.
the 'what ifs' dazed me out.
listing the possible pros and cons and thinking from both sides.
(my contract teaching was not very pleasant)

but i will constantly remind myself that
- i like my job cos it was on my mind since secondary school
- i am 'zai', competent and capable
- i love my students too much (in a bigger picture) to hate them (right now)

like wat my classmate said, 'we should not judge. cos the students need us.'
its true, who am i to judge? if i am not needed in the school, why will i be posted there? anyways, i am glad that i have a gesl friend with me in my future workplace. she is a nice person.

seriously, i need to stop my worrying-too-much nonsense!
i am all set to start my actual teaching soon!

happy chinese new year!

:)

booked

2009-01-12T06:11:00.001-08:00

jason mraz concert ticks!
he made it easy when life gets hard.

:)

lotsa deadlines for assignments...

nixie

2009-01-05T08:02:00.000-08:00

解铃还须系铃人。
铃是谁系的？
到头来，是否还是自己的选择。
自己的选择真的那么重要！
我们要怎么自拔,怎么放纵？

●♥ happy 2009 ♥●
one can never love someone whom they have not laughed with.

HAPPY 2009!!

2008-12-31T21:36:00.000-08:00

wow... its 2009 already.

have a blasting year ahead.
enjoy the simple joys, living and loving much!

i was watching marina bay countdown yesterday and was really entertained by the lot of beautiful ladies in TCS 8 and 5!
fiona xie, michelle chia, andrea forsenka, jade sia...
i like barabellaposhbeckman! she is so funni. lolxxx.
and well, i will try carsberg this new year...

not forgettin kym ng and all the actresses from little nyonya.
i love to watch little nyonya... i wan to buy kebaya...

one more new love found, choya (extra shiso)... yummy plum wine, on the rocks. its pink!

haha.

my new resolution is that...
EVERYONE MUST BE NICE TO ME NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!!!!!!
i know it sounds more like a wish or a demand...
but hell! heaven is a place on earth!!

packin'

2008-12-21T07:15:00.000-08:00

乱啊!!!

i am all excited to visit hongkong tmr!
all the packin, plannin n anticipation will finally some into some fruition...

good food, tab-bit colder weather and a slightly different culture.

a new destination and a new travel mate.
will return home with new wallets, bags, shoes and clothes too.
yay!

(｡◕‿◕｡)

By the way, i just caught 葉問 (Ip Man) yesterday. Its quite an engaging kungfu movie about 咏春拳. I have forgotten when was my last kungfu movie, but Kungfu Panda remains the cutest for sure!!!!!

home alone

2008-12-19T00:27:00.001-08:00

not that hard.

good attempt to occupy myself fully with
- household chores
- tee vee
- dvds
- naps
- gym
how about facebook, youtube, blogs and msn? hahas.

shit happens... and that means, school is reopening soon. Boo!

ilike Bob Sinclar's World, Hold On and Love Generation

watched keira knightley

2008-12-16T08:35:00.000-08:00

ponderin abt.
- the duchess
- the hongkong trip
- what are the differences/similarities between a 'sage on the stage' and a 'guide by the side', besides the rhyme?
- 'into-me-see'?

ho chi minh city

2008-12-15T02:41:00.000-08:00

day 1 - 11th dec

arrived at ho chi minh city airport
checked into omni saigon hotel
booked day trips to cu chi tunnel and mekong delta river at sinh cafe
dinner at pho2000
ben trahn night market - shopped!! bought an ao-dai (traditional vietnam costume!)
bought 'snow white' helium balloon.. super AA(attention seekin)
chilled out at sheraton hotel
pedicure for joey n james!
knocked out for the night...

day 2 - 12th dec

hotel breakfast
cuchi tunnel day trip - i'm impressed with the architecture of the tunnels, bombs and traps

delicious pho, chicken with lemongrass, saigon beer for lunch
dropped by cao dai temple - a very interesting religion that attempted to combine buddhism, christianity and taoism
visit to handicrafts factory - beautiful pieces of art, made with egg shells
tried lotteria's fried chicken (an alternate fastfood chain similar to KFC)
ate at executive lounge - love their pomelo!
dinner at japanese restuarant (sashimi, hot/cold sake, tempura, hotpot, plum wine, green tea ice cream)
photo takin @ town area - excellent xmas decor, exceeding singapore's standards!
went to acoustic - nice live band performance with a cute drummer! - i had a magarita
visited saigosaigon - salsa pub, with too mature a crowd for us.
proceed to top23 - hip club! met handsome sweden 'whiz-kid' guitarist (alex)
hit the sack for the night

day 3 - 13th dec
breakfast in hotel
proceed to sinh cafe for mekong delta trip - super duper long ride, 3draggyhours
sleep-eat-sleep our way to mekong delta
experience life of ppl living along the delta
tried their local snacks - pop-rice, rice paper with bananas, coconut milk candies!
lunch - grilled pork with rice, soup and fruits!
cultural performances - they played traditional musical instruments with vocals. sweet!!
way back to town - another 3 hours :)
checked out of omni saigon, checked into spring hotel
dinner at bun - yummy noodles, spring rolls, vietnamese coffee, escargots! tom yum soup...
visited apocalypse - normal club, i prefer club top23 though!
hopped to Qbar - chic n cool pub
slept late!

day 4 - 14th dec

breakfast at hotel - hot pho! (yumz) pomelo and iced coffee
round #2 - lotteria shrimp burger, KFC (grilled chicken n potato soup were yummy)!
strolled around diamond shoppin centre - departmental shoppin centre equivalent of ours...
visited notre dame cathedral n general post office
had drinks at allez boo - i drank tea!
checked out of spring hotel
home sweet home!

***
hmm, noticed i ate pho (quay diao with beef) EVERYDAY?
haha. yes, it was my 4-days-long obsession.
we also drank some alcohol EVERDAY...
not excessively though, but jus to taste. cause its real cheap! 5-8sgd only!
we could have visited more places if we had the time, 3 days was kinda short! there are a lot more places i wish i hav visited.

***

i wanna go cambodia n hanoi next time if i hav the chance!

go ga ga...

2008-12-14T07:32:00.001-08:00

dun'chu love instant updates?

2008-12-10T17:22:00.000-08:00

i do!
I like it when i can know what my friends are doin at specific moments.
I like it when they email, msg and tell me how they are doin.

things like the the 'update status' function in facebook really is a great way to get connected with my friends. msn, skype, googletalk or even jus chattin on facebook! or, maybe, i am a facebook stalker! (jus kiddin)...

or perhaps, i have a hunger to know, talk and communicate with my pals i am concerned about.
but i know, i am bad with PR skills... cant do guest relations for nuts.

speaking of which, for those who are concerned about me,
i am goin to ho chi minh at 220pm later!
will be back on the 14th...
i wanna see chu chi tunnel!

i'll be gettin... vietnamnese...
- fake fruit figurines - specifically durian, bananas, pineapples
- handicrafts - hangbags, purse, acessories, scarf
- traditional costumes, sequin shoes and signature straw hat.
- coffee powder
actually, the vietnamnese flag is simple, jus red and a yellow star, powerful symbol!

audiopleasure now,
Miss Saigon - Sun and Moon

likes & loves :)

2008-12-06T23:44:00.000-08:00

as i tried to quieten down and think through the events that happened thus far, i begin to feel more comforted. i began to appreciate the things happenin to me more. :)

i love online sermons

i like to download the weekly services from the FCBC into my mp3 player. the sermons always remind me of some very important values i can cling on to.
.:weeklyservices:.

i love the little children

I have been staring and observing little toddlers playin. they are jus so cute in their own ways. there is this link to our GESL project in NIE, the event was actually very memorable for me!
.:littleartsacademy:.

there is somethin i wish to share too, me and my group mates came out with a educational website that can help students learn more about blood
.:componentsofblood:.

i love siloso beach

i love to swim in sea waters, lyin on the beach, under the sun, amidst the wind and being hit by the waves.

i like to read

haha. yes. i actually like to read.
read 'the white tiger' and i am interested to get the book 'stella's mum'

i still like to run/jog

i enjoyed my 10km run at scsm today. i especially like the finishin part, with the loud-upbeat music. i know i was smiling! i appreciate some of the friends i had made through running. i LOVE them a lot, as they are REALLY nice people. i am very thankful for them. i wish i can get to know the others better, if only i am LESS shy.

i am happy that my bro wanted to join this yr's scsm and actually wan to join the sundown marathon nxt yr!... haha. it's nice that he enjoys running and keepin fit!

last assignm

2008-11-19T04:24:00.001-08:00

its good to finish my last assignm for the semester, which was on designing of an instructional package for chemistry! weee...!!

although i have many things planned this hols, a part of me is still pretty afraid to be left alone. not that i am demeaning the company of good friends, but i somehow feel that i am too social a person. my moods and the things i do are highly affected by the people around me. i am constantly lookin out for activities to do, plus i feel and do things for others most of the time. not very objective, always thinking abt the past and worryin abt the future. that's not very right.

maybe i am exaggeratin here. its jus an observation i made of myself. but, at my age, it is only natural that my social circle is to expand. but hopefully i will grow to be more accepting, open-minded and less self-critical, that i can also grow to be more in touch with myself and to be more comfortable on my own. *zen-ness*

i know i can.
:)

uni mates

2008-11-09T08:04:00.000-08:00

*tickles.

gorrilla's jeans & gloria disco beans

sbs alumni openin
17th jan

:)

disgusted

2008-11-09T07:35:00.000-08:00

'nuff said

upset!!

2008-11-07T19:13:00.000-08:00

i really do not want to be cynical.
i still want to believe.
i want.

cameron highlands - in peektures :)

2008-10-29T07:53:00.000-07:00

cameron highlands

2008-10-26T01:47:00.000-07:00

the sophiscat is a feline tat is capable of hidin itself beneath layers of sweet potato skins. Rides in cholera corroded corrolla, feed on smoked salmon and sniff unfiltered camel.

(",)¿§#¤

enjoyed, not endured

2008-10-12T05:06:00.000-07:00

2 hands are needed for a clap. otherwise, i would jus be slappin myself.

***

saw somethin that relates solar energy and ecology.
fact is that the sun is not included in our food chain. but sunlight is needed for plants to grow and plants are our food producers. thats y, without solar power, pigs will not grow and no ham for sandwiches.
however, $100 million is a more complicated story altogether, it translates low (no) tech to high tech in which i fathom not.

If a child lives with...... he learns.....

2008-09-26T02:53:00.000-07:00

criticism.... to condemn.
hostility....... to fight.
ridicule.... to be shy.
fear...... to be apprehensive.
shame.... to feel guilty.
tolerance.... to be patient.
encouragement.... to be confident.
acceptance.... to love.
approval.... to like himself.
recognition.... it is good to have a goal.
honesty.... what truth is.
fairness.... justice.
security.... to have faith in himself and those about him.
friendliness.... the world is a nice place in which to live, to love and be loved.

-Rudolf Dreikurs

'm fascinated

2008-09-24T07:11:00.000-07:00

aint it a pity i that sux at games?

warioland

experiencewii

are you always around? while i was hibernating?

or not around at all. only to visit while u write a travel piece, take a spontaneous holiday or to say hi?

:)
i realise i need a hero and God...

oh really?`~~

2008-09-15T02:55:00.000-07:00

649 a.m. & a guru?

You're the time of day right around sunrise, when the sky is still a pale bluish gray. The streets are empty, and the grass and leaves are a little bit sparkly with dew. You are the sound of a few chirpy birds outside the window. You are quiet, peaceful, and contemplative. If you move slowly, it's not because you're lazy ? it's because you know there's no reason to rush. You move like a relaxed cat, pausing for deep stretches that make your muscles feel alive. You are long sips of tea or coffee (out of a mug that's held with both hands) that slowly warm your insides just as the sun is brightening the sky.

You perceive the world with particular attention to nature. You focus on what's in front of you (the foreground) and how that fits into the larger picture. You are also particularly drawn towards the shapes around you. Because of the value you place on nature, you tend to find comfort in more subdued settings and find energy in solitude. You like to deal directly with whatever comes your way without dealing with speculating possibilities or outcomes you can't control. You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole. You prefer a structured environment within which to live and you like things to be predictable.

10 Essentials of an Educator

2008-09-03T01:23:00.000-07:00

by Ng Yeow Ling

A Heart to TEACH

Think others

'the focus of education is always others-driven, hence an educator seeks out the best interest of his charges. it is never a job for self-promotion ans self-glorification'

Expect the unexpected

in teaching, work is exciting not because it is controllable, but that it brings new ventures and fulfillment in ways we never expected.

Accept where you are placed

for teaching to start, you need to accept that where you are now is the right place for you

Confront your fears

the courage to teach is not the absence of fear, but the willingness to continue in spite of it

Harness your strengths and distinctiveness

each of us is unique and brings to teaching something no one else can replace

A Heart to LEARN

Look at possibilities

an educator learns by seeing with renewed vision

Enage positive emotions

when one stops being optimistic, one stops learning

Activate confidence

an educator is an encourager, one who gives courage when it is needed

Reach out for support

teachers are a fraternity: one will not learn well if one is a loner

#10

Never quit

unlike any other job, an educator's commitment is to see your pupils through the entire academic year

*******

some people call it delusional, others call it naive.

haha, i reckon i am both. however, i am pretty sure i will gain a lot from this 4 years.

i might make a career switch, i might not.

i might because i have some other things in mind to pursue. might not because teaching can turn out to be ultra-rewarding.

but i will always believe i will have a life well-lived.

life is too short. job-satisfaction, experiences and personal growth matters to me more.

going back to school to teach kinda allow me to relive my days when i was still in school. though it was not all rosy, i had my fair share of fun! so i find it worthwhile to experience school life through twice with different perspectives, its rich!

i'm sure teaching aint goin to be easy. with the new Grow 2.0 package, we no longer have a fixed annual increment, it will be merit/ performance based.

so... lets see how i can perform. its too early to worry about it now!

i should jus focus on my assignments!

movies

2008-08-30T22:41:00.000-07:00

been watchin movies these days, either from dvds/ theatres/ streamings....

watched '12lotus' and '$$notenough' wif my mum n bro some 3 weeks back...
i cried watching '12lotus'. i cant stand bad guys cheating on gd girls. i feel for dutiful daughters with gambler dads.

my mum teared during '$$notenough', cos its about old folks with exorbitant medical bills. friction betw brothers etc.

both stories are about the love for $$$. yes, its a pragmatic world out there. :(

of all the movies i watched, found 'love in times of cholera' and 'pathology' quite dumb.

the book for 'love in times of cholera' is so much better. the movie has so(too) many love(sex) scenes. i do know each person hav this 'one-true-love', but i do not need a 2 hr movie to tell me that some men can xxx around at any convenient place possible without lovin. sigh...

'pathology' was jus drugs, gore and cutting/slashin/ burning of dead human bodies. what kinda weird fetish or fantasy has it satisified? the doctors are jus stressed up, exhibitin eir gruesome violent streak. twisted.

and one of my all-time favs : Love Actually.
i am still not sick of it after watching it over :)

audio-companion @ the moment: The Best of LeAnn Rimes.

gone shoppin'

2008-08-28T04:34:00.000-07:00

i have a few copin mechanisms for gloominess.
i either sleep a lot more, eat a lot more or shop a lot more.

as a result, i spurged my $$ on
- 2 pieces of clothes from mphosis
- 1 dress from newborn
- 1 canon printer
- 320G hard disk
- 3 pieces of clothes from yin&yang and
- 2 books

hmm... realised mphosis, newborn and yin&yang are all local designers.
wah, i din know i am such a fan.

**************

abt my hair, i hav utterly failed to carry off jennifer gardner's cool&sophisicated look. got a lil of drew barrymore's 'cutesy' vibe instead.

sobz. please dun ask me 'y u go and cut ur hair until liddat'...
i know it is really 'not that bad'....

stupidity

2008-08-17T22:15:00.000-07:00

they said the best way to get back to a person who puts you down is to prove.

PROVE. in revenge anger passion. watever pple call it.
manifestin the urgency to prove.

i realise i dun hav this kanna urge.
i get angry and upset.
then i will continue to be nice to these pple...

is that wrong?
shit. i am hatin it.

i hate to prove.

washoe

2008-08-05T21:12:00.000-07:00

we attended a talk held by acres and got introduced to the organisation and what they do. somethin that intrigued me was the study done on a chimpanzee named 'washoe'. how it was taught the american sign language and how she used it to communicate with humans. the speaker shared some stories about the life and emotions of the chimp which reflect well of some human characteristics/ nature.

links:
signing with animals
Chimpanzee and Human Communication Institute

its both interesting and heart-warming how these next-of-kins can reflect our most primative and basic mode of thoughts, learning, communciations and many other interesting facts and patterns that can be identified.

:)

initiative

2008-07-30T09:22:00.000-07:00

as suggested by my goodpal, i hav decided to blog again to relief come kinda boredom/ frustration in my devillived life.

no that i liveddevil... but jus kinda bored and gibberish at the moment. millions-bytes of thought trafficking through my jammed and busy nerve-weaved brain. wired erratically.

ok. siao-ness done wif.
time to explain what/why.

GLADNESS:

thanks dom for large-sized sunshine showerhead. it saved and made my day.

though NIE is indeed kinda FAR, i'm glad our ed-psych lecturer was farnie. with her wealth of experience and boundless capacity to teach, she passionately cracked jokes in a motherly manner in class. i like her. i hope i will be inspired by her stories.
having familiar friends like lianya, kerui, fidelia, yvonne made life easier.

i hav 1 short day (tdy) and 1 free day(tmr) this week. HIPPY!
visited the singapore garden fest with ade and took lots of peektures.
met james n his wife too.

as for tmr, i am goin to ecp!!
gonna learn a bit of cycling and enjoy skating.

................

BITTERNESS:

i cant deny i HATE certain entities of beings.

i cant stand the fact that femail friends disappears when they have found their very special mail speciMAN. it upsets me. so much.

i cant understand wat HOT means, it felt like an insult to hav lots of friends (who are not ard cos they hav more impt things to attend to). i was so desperate that i wiki-ed it. my wiki-friend told me that HOT-2, HOT-7, and HOT-17 are series of psychedelic phenethylamines. drugs? arghhhhhs

i dun get your understanding of me, your view of where i am comin from and that u really hope to be with me. i am still an ad-hoc project to u. at least u hav made me feel that way ever since.

i am afraid. afraid that i will be unhappy beyond what i can handle.
scared that i would be saddened and blinded from available hope, possibilities and joy.

i dun understand why.
wat is wrong wif me that i could change/accept/do.
explain logic. gimme wisdom plssssssssssssssssssssssss.
gimme gimme gimme gimme more wisdom.

【會呼吸的痛】

2008-06-15T07:17:00.000-07:00

我想要一份理所當然接受且給予的關心
只要輕輕的、慢慢的就好，太多的力量會讓系統崩毀

:)
haha...
i really have to listen to more bitter-sweet chinese songs.
thanks pal, for introducing fish leong's songs to me!

a poem from the movie Harold&Kumar
(i finally managed to find it!)

Square Root Three

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three
The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight

Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality
When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands
Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

of lates...

2008-06-14T09:50:00.000-07:00

recent happenings.

i always hav a thing for yoga. probably due to the fact that i was part of the chinese dance troupe during kindergarten, primary and secondary school. was an average dancer. always loving the warm-up exercises; stretchin of muscles, posing, kicking and stuff.

yoga kinda revive that sensation of tension behind the knees, spines, calf and pointing of toes. yoga kinda made me feel all zen and in mediative calmness. i've jus tried classes at pure yoga. and I SIMPLY LOVE IT. i might like pilates too (hav not tried it yet).

attended priya's rom dinner too. (and some other relatives' and friends' engagement/ weddin dinners) it seems scary for me; to get married. probably i hav not dated someone long enough to feel total trust and ease to FINALLY commit for a lifetime. i am still lookin out for THE ONE, like the one bigger than mr BIG. i know somehow we'll collide *optimistic*optimistic*, cry buckets and then be irrationally estatic together in the end.

one lesson i've learnt:
LET GO of the things that are impossible.

oh, went sentosa for a tan (not much sun)... i swam! and finally reached home to blog... decided not goin for ktv cos i was too tired. watched some videos too.

will hav to pop-by nie nxt week for some registration. and then back to sch for sci dept meetin. actually i still want my hols...

oh. totally random. i saw a man today, wearing a shirt that says,

'i am always stuck in shit. they jus differ in depth'

tot it's hilariously-pessimistic.
see how pple (actually referin to myself) can complain abt things? would we ever end? complainin abt being under the weather and how change is quick and they are sinkin in quicksand? or how stuck situations can be. how bored i life can be... yada yada...

hmm.
i will be happy and focused.

teach&learn.
i'll hav much to learn abt life.

Hope

2008-06-13T01:49:00.000-07:00

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,
And sing the tune without the words,
And never stops at all.

And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chilliest land,
And on the strangest sea;
Yet, never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.

-Emily Dickinson

I am thankful for hope :)

emo emo

2008-06-03T10:28:00.000-07:00

i have terrible mood swings *confession made*
i would feel angelic at times and cynical/ bitchy/ horrid at others.

i still harbour certain issues at my age.
kinda childish. like i have not grown.

thoughts on 3 random things right now.

#1
abt boundaries.
boundaries are there not to divide people and keep others out. it is there so that we may fit in.

i find myself pin pointin on certain things.
tellin myself phrases like...

'this is none of MY business.

this is none of THEIR business.'

i am settin boundaries.
but i hope i am not cuttin people out.

#2
and i know... the only person to help myself is ME! and there's always HOPE.
HOPE HOPE HOPE!!!

#3
heard of this song and quite like it. i'm goin to learn it up, so as to hav something to contribute durin ktv sessions. hahas.

至少还有你

我怕来不及我要抱着你
直到感觉你的皱纹有了岁月的痕迹
直到肯定你是真的直到失去力气
为了你我愿意

动也不能动也要看着你直到感觉你的发线
有了白雪的痕迹直到视线变得模糊
直到不能呼吸让我们形影不离

如果全部世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你值得我去珍惜
而你在这里就是生命的奇迹

也许全世界我也可以忘记
就是不愿意失去你的消息
你掌心的志我总记得在那里

我们好不容易我们身不由已
我怕时间太快不够将你看仔细
我怕时间太慢日夜担心失去你
恨不得一夜之间白头永不分

boom~ zoomed by~

2008-05-29T00:01:00.000-07:00

zoom by goes time...
bye to sbs dnd, marking of papers and the taipei trip...
love my sch mates lots. we'll meet up again yar?

i am back to sunny singapore.
hoping n dreaming for the next interesting escapade... where should my next destination be?

its the sch hols now! got quite a bit of time at hand, but too broke to do my hair or to travel.
$$$$$$$!!!!!

however, there are still quite a number of things to do which are both beneficial and low in budget. shall jus focus on those.

things to look forward to now would be my cousin's wedding and the passion run.
it'll be great to witness my cousin gettin hitched this comin weekend. wish her happiness forever more! passion run will the 1st 15km run after sososoo long. i am so in-active these days, i hope my pathetic legs can carry me through this jog safe n sound without any major injuries.

hohoho... thats all for now... shall upload my pics soon!

.: beautiful sunset. danshui, taipei :.

ambivalence

2008-05-16T00:21:00.000-07:00

its sbs dnd in 2 hrs time. i am goin to see my uni friends REAL soon.
(shld I do up my hair?)
followed by a long weekend. skating and cookout.
i'll hav to finish markin my chemistry papers within 3 days.
before goin for my taiwan trip.
it'll be the june hols when i'm back!
w00t!~

much to look forward to!
hav to plan for things to occupy myself eh?
gotta use my time wisely.

er... wat is wise?

stolen identity

2008-05-01T07:09:00.000-07:00

i jus realised somebody used my previous blog add

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